The Backup Plan

I should be gone by now.

Six months ago, I was certain that today would be the day I left for the Peace Corps. Today would be the first day of the rest of my life. Today was supposed to be a bittersweet day of excitement, fear and anticipation. Today was going to be the most challenging day of my life, leaving everything behind for the next two years.

I’m still here. After a year of applications, interviews, paperwork, and doctor appointments, I’ve yet to hear anything from the Peace Corps regarding my eventual departure. And each day that passes makes it even more difficult to step away from my life as I begin to formulate my backup plan.

Backup Plan: Graduate School.

It’s not a perfect plan. I face a number of challenges in taking this route. I’ve been so focused on the Peace Corps that I’ve missed the application deadlines. But even if I wouldn’t have missed those deadlines, because I’ve decided I want to study Environmental Engineering, I have at least a year of remedial coursework to complete before I can even be considered for the program. Had I known earlier that I’d want to study engineering, I’d have prepared a little better. Now I’m planning for another year of Physics and Calculus courses.

I just have to keep moving forward. The path I’ve chosen may not be the path of least resistance, but quitting is not an option.

Goal #65) Earn my Bachelor Degree

The Most Important Year of My Life

Rare are the moments when what happens next will influence the rest of your life.

But that’s exactly where my life is today. It’s both exciting, and frightening. After years of being in the classroom, I finally graduated last week. I guess that means I’m a scientist. (Weird.) And now that I’m a scientist, at least in my education, it’s time to change the world. How, exactly, I go about doing that is yet to be determined.

Even though I’ve graduated, I’m enrolled in classes for Spring semester. I haven’t had much luck (any luck) finding a job (any job.) Instead of hanging around the apartment feeling sorry for myself, I’m going to use that time to further my education. There were some classes that I didn’t have an opportunity to take before graduation, and now that I have the time, it’d be a waste not to use it to my benefit.

Enrolling in classes isn’t without problems. If I receive an invitation to serve in the Peace Corps, I may have to drop out of school as early as April. But that’s only if I receive an invitation, and my departure date isn’t delayed for any reason. I’ve heard horror stories about that. At this point, I still have to submit what I hope will be the last of my medical information, which I expect will be mailed out within a couple of weeks. I still have one appointment before the paperwork is complete.

For a while I questioned whether the Peace Corps was the right choice for me at this point in my life. I think it is. An opportunity like this rarely presents itself…I’d be a fool to turn it down. And after writing a research paper about the connection between poverty and the environment in Tanzania, I feel like I have a better understanding of the types of issues I might be dealing with during my time in Africa. Knowledge is power! And now that I know more about the problems, I feel empowered to do my part to help. I might not be able to save the world, but I can help dig a well, or build a school.

Two years is a long time, and I know it’ll put a strain on my relationship with Erin. How could it not? Long distance relationships are notorious for problems. As much as I’d like to think our relationship is strong enough to weather the time apart, I don’t take it for granted that we’re not immune from the same problems other couples face. That said, I really think that if anyone can do it, we can.

In the meantime, until I hear something from the Peace Corps, I’ll continue looking for work. My job search will be limited to jobs that I wouldn’t have any issue quitting at the drop of a hat. It’d be a lot more difficult to quit a job I went to school for, and those are the kinds of bridges I’m not willing to burn, even for the Peace Corps.

And if none of the above works out, I’ll begin applying for graduate school. My school of choice is the University of Denver where I’d study Environmental Science, and specialize in Environmental Health. If I can get in. This would knock out Goal #63) Attend college in another state.

What’s all of this mean for my goals over the next year? A lot. If I’m not living in Africa in a few months, 2012 will be the year of climbing. If I am living in Africa, 2012 will be the year of climbing. Next year I’d like to climb Mount Whitney, Devil’s Tower, Kilimanjaro, and Ancient Art. I’d like to spend some time in Yosemite this summer…climbing.

I thought I’d get to hike to the bottom of the Grand Canyon last July, but it didn’t work out. This year I’ll get my permit application submitted earlier than two weeks in advance. I’d also like to visit the last few states of America, and finally visit all 50. Alaska will be the most difficult, but who knows…it could happen. Anything is possible.

Are you looking forward to what the future has in store for you?

Update: Goal #43) Take a Calculus Class

I don’t like math. But, like many of my other goals, taking a calculus class is meant to be a challenge.

Today, I picked up my textbook, and will be starting class in about a week. I wish I could say that I’m looking forward to it, but really, I’m just looking forward to it being over. There are things in life that I feel are worthwhile, that what I’m learning is valuable…I’m not convinced calculus is one of those things.

Earlier this year I took an introductory course to calculus. The material didn’t seem difficult, a lot of it was a review of algebra. Of course, there was also a great deal of trigonometry presented in the course, and not having any background with trigonometry, I found myself struggling to understand. And that’s maybe one of my biggest challenges in learning…I have to understand the material in a way that is meaningful, not just memorize facts and formulas.

It’s because of this need to understand, rather than memorize, that I failed my second semester of organic chemistry. There was so much information to remember, that without spending hours and hours of my life forcing myself to learn reaction mechanisms, I had no chance to succeed. And I didn’t spend the time to learn the material. I gave up about halfway through the semester, and I failed.

With this being a summer class that lasts only four weeks, I think I can stay focused and motivated to succeed. I know it’s going to be a challenging class, but if I can just push through and work hard, I know I’ll do fine. I’m less concerned with my ability to learn the information than my ambition to learn the information. If I get discouraged, I get frustrated and give up. I can’t do that again…the stakes are too high! If I don’t pass this class now, I’ll have to take it again in the Fall…or else I won’t graduate.

The pressure’s on!

The Science, Politics and Controversy of Commercial Whaling

I’ve gone missing ever since my return from Japan.  My absense was due in large part to a paper I had to write for one of my classes.  Finally I’ve completed that paper and am presenting the finished product here for you!  I hope you enjoy it.

Abstract

Traditional whaling dates back thousands of years.  The earliest evidence of humans exploiting whales are the petroglyphs found at Bangue-dae in South Korea.  It took until the early 17th century before modern industrialized whaling began but by the early 20th century, the need for international cooperation in whale conservation became evident.  In 1946, the International Convention for the Regulation of Whaling (ICRW), an environmental agreement which provided for the “proper conservation of whale stocks” and “the orderly development of the whaling industry,” was created.  Today, despite an international moratorium on commercial whaling since 1986, stipulations within the ICRW allow whaling to continue.  Controversy within the IWC has undermined the integrity of the Commission and whaling countries consider the moratorium a violation of their sovereignty and an attack against their national heritage.  All politics aside, whale population estimates indicate that it will take decades to recover from the effects of industrialized whaling and the futures of some species remain uncertain.

From Ancient Civilizations to Contemporary Times

There are approximately seventy-eight living species of whales, dolphins, and porpoises included in the Order Cetacea.  Eleven species fall under the Suborder Mysticeti (baleen whales) and sixty-seven under Odontoceti (toothed whales) (NOAA Fisheries Office of Protected Resources, 2010).  All except seven species live in marine environments (World Wildlife Fund, 2010).

The earliest known petroglyphs depicting scenes of humans hunting large cetacean species is located in South Korea at an archaeological site known as Bangu-dae.  Numerous species including sperm whales, right whales and humpback whales have been identified at this site, indicating that the Neolithic (6000-1000 B.C.) populations living in this region were amongst the first to take advantage of these coastal species (Lee and Rubineau, 2004).

To the east of Korea, in Japan, ancient whaling practices can be traced back to the Yamato-Asuka period (538-710 A.D.). The oldest Japanese book, the Kojiki, is a collection of myths about the origin of the islands of Japan and speaks of Japan’s first Emperor, Jimmu (660-585 B.C.), eating whale meat (Facts about Japan, 2010a).

Although traditional whaling practices such as those found in South Korea and Japan date back thousands of years, the first people credited with whaling at a commercial scale were the Basque inhabitants of the Bay of Biscay coasts during the 12th century.  It wasn’t until the early 17th century when modern industrialized whaling began (Sanger, 2005).

By the early 20th century, as a result of new technology and overexploitation, the need for international cooperation in whale conservation became evident.  Read more of this post

What Do You Really Have to Lose?

The following is in response to an article at The Simple Dollar titled What Do You Really Have to Lose?  I encourage you to read the original article so you can form your opinion based on all of the advice he offers to an upcoming college graduate.

As another school year draws to a close, students around the country will be graduating college.  This is an important point in life where the choice of money or passion is typically decided.  Some will find careers in their field of study, realizing after four years of classes that they were chasing dollar signs rather than their passion, while others are left to flounder, unable to find their dream job and unwilling to settle for less than they deserve.

A few days ago, a college student I know was talking about his upcoming graduation.  His plans mostly revolved around getting a good paying job, but he also talked about how he might go back to school some day and study a particular branch of philosophy that he truly loved studying and reading about.

I asked him why he was choosing to put a good paying job over a path that he was deeply personally passionate about that might not necessarily earn a great deal in the near future.  He pretty much exploded, offering up a rant about how the world revolves around money and the only way he would ever be able to chase the dreams he has is if he has lots of income.

What is Trent’s advice to this recent graduate?

Since you don’t need much income, get a job sitting behind a counter at a gas station at night.  Earn minimum wage and sit there with your notebook open, collecting your ideas and thoughts about whatever it is you want to do.  Spend your mental and physical energy building the life you want.

There is no better time in your life to just throw caution to the wind and see where your passion will carry you than when you’re young and free of many responsibilities.  If it doesn’t work, you’re not out anything much – maybe a few years, at worst.  If it does work, you’ve opened the door to a lifetime of doing what you want to do.

What do you really have to lose?  Not much.  What do you have to gain?  The life you dream of.

After four years of college, Trent thinks the best option for this student is to sit behind the counter at a gas station doodling in a notebook?  Get real!  He has a degree which has the potential to earn a lot of money, he should pursue that avenue, even if it doesn’t make him happy, temporarily.  At least he will be unhappy while earning a decent wage rather than being unhappy selling cigarettes and porno magazines while barely scraping by on minimum wage.

Unless his education was financed by his parents, repayment on his Student Loans will begin six months after graduation.  Trying to pay those loans on a minimum wage job isn’t realistic.  If he takes a higher paying position, at least he could focus on knocking out the debt quickly so he is able to move on to better things sooner.

If it is his desire to return to school to study philosophy, having a cash reserve would make that transition much easier.  Most people are not able to pursue their dreams in life because of a lack of money.  It is not possible for them to switch between the lifestyle they have been living to one which might limit their income.  The higher paying position would also allow him to save money on a more accelerated schedule than a minimum wage job would allow, thus making that transition happen much faster and more easily.

This is my advice to this same college graduate:

Your job does not define you.  Society’s emphasis on a person’s career obscures our perception of self.  Defining who you are as an individual based on your career is limiting.  You are unique.  Don’t lose your individuality, don’t become another cog in the corporate machine.

Money is not everything but it can help create the life you desire.  Maybe your perception of the world is that it revolves around money.  It doesn’t.  This is a mistake many people make.  They believe that happiness is derived from driving fancy cars and living in expensive homes.  They believe success is defined by material possessions.  Life is about internal happiness, not external gratification.  Success is finding satisfaction and acceptance within and of yourself.

Income is only half of the equation.  So many people believe that making a lot of money is the foundation to the life of their dreams, only to find out that they have become a slave to their job.  Earning a large paycheck serves no purpose if your lifestyle grows with your income.  Live frugally, save as much money as possible and use this as your foundation to pursue your ambitions.

This is the time in your life when you have the power to define the remainder of your days here on Earth.  Work as hard as you can to set yourself up for success.  Seize opportunities when they present themselves, don’t be afraid to take risks.  Play the game to your advantage and build a strong foundation for the rest of your life.  Make every decision based on how it will affect your dream of studying philosophy.

Don’t work at a gas station!

The Last of My Debt: Student Loans

Contractually I am under no obligation to begin repaying my Student Loan debt.  I could care less about contracts.  I want this debt gone and I want it gone as quickly as possible.  That means I must create a plan.

My Student Loan balance is currently at $29,241.94, not including accrued interest which is $1,735.50 for a grand total of $30,977.44.  Owing this much money does not make me feel good and I have a burning need to eliminate this debt.  The good news is that now that I have paid off my car loan, I have an extra $328 a month to apply towards my Student Loans without making any changes to my lifestyle.

The problem with only paying $328 a month means that I won’t be out of debt until 10 years from today.  That is too long.  The thought of paying down debt for the next ten years is overwhelming.  I don’t want to hand my paycheck over to some faceless company for “the rest of my life.”  Instead of feeling overwhelmed, I have decided to focus my attention on the “most important” portion of the loan, the $15,102.94 in Unsubsidized loans at 6.8% interest.  I hope to be able to eliminate this debt by the time I graduate in May 2011.  That gives me 18 months and a challenging, yet possible, goal to work towards for a short period of time.

In order to accomplish this task, I have to come up with $839 a month.  That is going to be hard but I hope it will not be impossible.  The budget that I have drafted up allows $619.50 a month for debt repayment.  My budget currently includes saving 10% of my Gross Income for my Emergency Fund because I drained that account in order to pay off my car.  Now it is time to build that back up to a reasonable amount.  I probably won’t reach my goal of saving $5,000 since I’d rather put my money towards debt repayment.  I’ll boost my EF to an amount that will equal 3 months of living expenses after which I will begin using the money that had been going into savings for debt repayment.

During this period of debt reduction I will adjust my budget on occasion to allow for discretionary spending such as travel expenses and unexpected costs such as clothing.  I know that this is not an ideal situation in terms of “proper” budgeting however, since I rarely buy clothing (I finally broke down and bought a new pair of jeans after the butt on my favorite pair of jeans literally fell apart) and I don’t usually plan very far in the advance for travel, these expenses are too random to plan for effectively in the long term.  Still, by the end of 18 months, I want the Unsubsidized Loans gone and that is my goal.

This begins today and to prove that I’m serious, I sold one of my most prized possessions, my 5-string bass guitar and the amplifier that went with it.  Once I put the check in the bank, that money is going directly to paying off my Student Loans.  I sacrifice today so that I won’t have to sacrifice later.  Selling that guitar was one of the most difficult things I have had to do.  I focused on the emotions attached to it, how hard I worked washing dishes for $5 an hour in order to earn enough money to pay for it and how much I loved playing it back in the day.  The reality of the situation was that I hadn’t played it in years and having it sitting in the closet wasn’t doing me any good.

Debt sucks!

Ten Commandments of Goals & Money

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“Accomplish Your Goals While Managing Your Finances.”

At times, the two seem to be at odds with one another.  How can a person manage their finances when goals are oftentimes lofty dreams of indulgence?  A waver in one direction has an immediate impact upon the other.  The secret to is to find balance.

For the past year I have been toeing this line in my own life.  I have managed to pay off the last of my credit card debt and paid my car loan off more than a year early.  At the same time I spent a month traveling North America, spent a night under the stars of a clear California sky and climbed Mount Saint Helens.  This experience has brought me to some conclusions.  I’ve singled out the ten most important things to consider when you begin your journey towards accomplishing your own life goals.

The Ten Commandments of Goals & Money:

1) Know Thyself: Any successful journey in life requires some degree of foresight and planning.  Your future is no different.  Take time to consider what your values are and where your passions lie.  Create a list of goals and search for a common theme.  Use this as a compass to help orient yourself in the direction you want your life to take.

2) Happiness Is NOT “Out There”: Our focus frequently rests upon what we do not have or those things that are not ideal in our lives.  We set goals as a way to better our lives, not realizing that our focus on improvement is the reason we are dissatisfied with our lives today.  We trick ourselves into believing that happiness can be found in a pay raise or that a boob job will make us beautiful.  This isn’t the truth.  Happiness cannot be found “out there”, it comes from within.

3) Follow Your Heart: Too often we ignore what is in our hearts, opting instead to think with our head.  While our brains have great capacity for extraordinary intellectual achievement, sometimes they hinder our spirit.  Listen to your heart.

4) Money IS Important: Money does not equal happiness but money is important.  Without it, our focus would change from accomplishing goals to struggling to survive.  It is important to be fiscally responsible and to find a balance between today and tomorrow.  Seek harmony in your finances.

5) Know Your Priorities & Align Your Actions: There is a difference between saying and doing.  It is easy to say you value something.  It is not so easy to express your values through action.  It is crucial that we align our values with our actions if we hope to live a life which is in harmony with our priorities.  In doing so we are able to live guilt free, knowing that we are doing what we believe is the right thing.  At the end of the day we can rest our head upon our pillow with a clear conscious.

6) Modify Your Internal Dialogue: We are too hard on ourselves.  Instead of building ourselves up, we break ourselves down.  We focus on our flaws, the things that we need to improve upon.  We ignore our talents, our individuality.  Learn to love your imperfections, they are what make you unique.

7) Debt is Slavery: We may not be pulling a plow across the earth like our ancestors but we are no less of a slave to our debts, however, we are our own masters.  Whenever you feel it is time to break free from the binding chains of debt, you are in control to make that decision.  The more debt you accumulate and each dollar you waste is another day of slavery.  It doesn’t need to be that way…break free.

8) Stop Making Excuses: If you think about something long enough or hard enough, you can be certain that you will always find a reason not to do something.  Making excuses is not productive.  Stop.

9) The First Step is Always the Most Difficult: The hardest thing about going for a jog is putting on the shoes.  After that, things tend to fall into place.  The same can be said for most aspects of life.  Overcoming inertia is difficult and may require a leap of faith, a request for assistance or admitting you don’t have all of the answers.  This simple act may be the catalyst to major change in your life.

10) Knowledge is Power: The other day I was reading a blog post and read the following:

Uncertainty is caused by a lack of knowledge.  Hesitation is the product of fear.

This simple thought struck a chord and as I thought more about it, Fear controls so many aspects of our day-to-day lives.  We hesitate out of fear and fear what is unknown.  By educating ourselves we remove the unknown variables.  We eliminate the uncertainty.  The more we know, the more confident we become as an individual.  Knowledge is power.

What is Your Master Plan?

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Without goals, our lives are like a ship without sails.  The winds of potential blow strong against our mast but with no sail to capture the energy we are left stationary, floating quietly with no command over the direction the waves push us.

Having goals allows us to hoist our sails high into the air and in an instant we are skipping across the surface of the water.  Our sails are filled with energy from the wind and our eyes are focused on the sliver of land that has just peaked out from the ocean blue.  Our destination comes into focus and as we arrive upon the shore we have learned a powerful lesson; if we create goals and harness our ambition & passion, we will realize our dreams.

If we are ships upon the sea with no focus or direction, what can we do to raise our sails and capture the wind?

Something I don’t spend much time discussing is the power of long-term goals.  My list of 100 Goals consists mostly of milestone accomplishments, things that once accomplished can be crossed off the list.  Crossing a goal off the list is a moment of satisfaction; knowing that I’ve done something great and meaningful in my life but once that goal is crossed off, it is done.  The moment has passed & I am looking forward to the next milestone that I can work towards accomplishing.

While I wouldn’t change any of the experiences I’ve had in using this method to accomplish my goals, the question that begs to be answered is this: “What happens when I have accomplished everything I want to do in my life?  What will I be left with?”

The answer is to have a Master Plan; a series of successive goals that will ultimately lead to what we envision our Perfect Life to be.  A Master Plan requires knowing where you want your life to be and figuring out a way to get there from where you are today.   It requires you to be proactive and take intentional steps in order to make your plan a reality.  It requires discipline, determination and flexibility.

Creating Your Master Plan

Too often we find ourselves ignoring our dreams of a Perfect Life because we tell ourselves that they are not grounded in reality.  Before we allow our desires to blossom into anything more than a passing thought, we stifle ourselves.  We are blocking our own success and happiness.  There will always be a reason why we “can’t” do something and now it is time to ignore those excuses and begin to create your Master Plan.

Close your eyes and envision your Perfect Life.  What do you see?  Are you working with panda bears in a sanctuary?  Are you backpacking the Appalachian Trail?  Maybe you are relaxing in your backyard drinking lemonade watching your children playing on the swing set.  No matter what you see, you have found your destination.  Now it is time to figure out how you will get there.

Usually at this point you would push your dreams aside with thoughts of “reality”, all the reasons why you are unable to pursue your dreams.  I want you to consider all of these excuses about why you can’t follow your dream but I need you to change your perspective.  Instead of using them as reasons why you can’t follow your dream, think of them as challenges to beat.  Don’t use them as an excuse any longer.  Use them as motivation.  Instead of feeling overwhelmed, find a way to overcome these challenges.  Your plan should be ambitious yet realistic.

The next phase in accomplishing your Master Plan is to figure out what steps you must take in order to position yourself to make your dream possible.  Will your Perfect Life require a career change?  Do you need to further your education? If your Perfect Life requires you to get a degree or certificate, enroll in classes, even if that means taking one class a semester for the time being.  If you need to change your career, start submitting resumes and begin networking with people who are in the field that you want to break into.  Prepare to Quit Your Job.

Ultimately, your Master Plan is about having a long-term goal to pursue while using short-term goals as a means for making progress towards your Perfect Life.  A Master Plan is not something that happens overnight.  My own Master Plan has been in the works for nearly 5 years, and I am only now really beginning to fully understand what it is that I want in my own life.  Progress is slow but steady and each day is a new opportunity.  Today is your opportunity to make a change in your life, an opportunity to start working towards your Perfect Life.  No more excuses, no more hesitation.  Today is the first day of the rest of your life.  You decide what that means for you.

Goal #62) Finish Associate Degree

"The Graduate" by hungrytiger @ FlickrFor the last 4 years of my life I have been attending classes at a community college in order to earn my Associate of Arts & Science Degree.  After joining the “real world” I realized that I wanted to do more with my life.  I wasn’t happy working in retail even though I seemed to be getting promoted to positions of higher responsibility regularly.  I started my job gathering shopping carts from the parking lot and by the time I decided to move on I had worked my way up to being a Department Manager.

I enrolled in classes and began my education.  Soon after beginning classes I found a new job working at a local factory where I earned significantly more money and worked more hours.  I had to cut down on how many credits I was taking as I was working so many hours.  Quitting my job in order to focus on school was not an option as I had buried myself in consumer debt.  I needed to earn money to pay the bills.  As a result of having to continue my job it took me twice as long as it should have for me to finish my classes.

I stuck with it for 4 years and this week I finished my last classes and have earned my Associate Degree.  I set out this semester with the goal of passing my classes with an A average and was able to maintain an A- in both of my classes all the way until the final exam.  I worked hard to accomplish this and I was worried what would happen with the final exams.  Would I be able to keep my A- average or would I mess it up at the very end?

I studied hard for my Algebra final and managed to earn a B+.  My average for the class was high enough that I was able to pass with an A-.  A huge accomplishment for me considering I had given up and dropped out of the introduction course to this class.  With a lot of hard work and determination I exceeded my own expectations of my abilities.

My next final exam was in Environmental Geology.  This has been an easy class for me and I never really needed to study much.  The information which was presented made sense and it was enough for me to attend class and listen to the lecture.  As a result of the ease of information I didn’t study for the final as I felt I knew and understood the information.  Now I wish I had studied as I didn’t do as well as I had hoped to and my A- average ended up as a B+.  I don’t think it wasn’t that I didn’t know the material but rather that the questions were worded in a way which was intended to confuse.  I spoke with my professor after receiving my grade and she said that a lot of people didn’t do well but she chalked it up to end of semester laziness.

Today I have officially completed my Associate Degree!

What have I learned through this experience?  In addition to all of the course materials, I learned a few important lessons:

1) Don’t take more student loans than necessary-  I took out much more money than I actually needed in order to fund a lifestyle which I couldn’t afford.  Even though I had a full-time job the entire time I was attending classes, I was spending money like crazy.  I was loaded with debt and kept taking out more and more loans in order to afford to live.  I didn’t realize it then that the only way to solve the problem was to stop spending.

2) Don’t take unnecessary courses- I took a lot of classes that I didn’t need simply because they were interesting to me.  I think we should pursue our interests, but when it is costing a lot of money, it may be better to limit yourself to required courses and those which apply directly to your major.  I “wasted” a lot of time, money & energy by taking courses I didn’t need.

3) Figure out your intended major early- When you know what you want to be when you grow up it makes it much easier to map out a path.  You can avoid taking unnecessary courses and save yourself a lot of time if you know where you want to go instead of repeatedly changing directions.

4) Work hard, even if it is easy-  I thought that I would never be able to pass my Algebra course, but I worked hard and struggled at times, but I never gave up and passed it with a grade far beyond my expectations.  On the other side of the spectrum is my class where it was easy for me & I didn’t study.  Even though I had carried an A- average the entire semester, I didn’t study for the final and messed up my goal of earning an A.  Don’t take things for granted just because they are easy.

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